~~爱演又碍眼的熊猫生活~~

前情人能做朋友吗？

2011-08-12T00:27:00.001-07:00

如果人家知道我跟我的前女友的故事，可能总觉得很无缘无故的分开，但是也觉得没有什么好可惜的。因为她的异性缘很好，有时候跟其他的朋友好到很亲密，所以人家就觉得他不专一。有时候真的也让我觉得很气，但是到最后还是接受了她的习惯。分开过后，一直都有想要回去跟她在一起，但是就是一直不理睬我，也不接受我。当时候也有1年多了。等到麻木了，就找东西让自己忙，来忘记她。直到她回来找我，但是我已经有女朋友了。所以，她知道了，也伤心一阵子，又过了一段时间，就跟另外的一个人在一起了。让我知道过后，心里总觉得酸酸的。但是也没管太多，认为时间就能够冲淡一切。

她很坚持要跟我做朋友，说她不想失去我这种朋友。过了几个月，前女友找我了，把我当着她的好朋友来谈她和她的男朋友的事情。可能我也是蛮了解她的，所以才来找我。聊了，又发现到他们很甜蜜。哇。。。还真地感觉到有点像一把刀插了进来。可能这个就是他们所说的，分开了，最好任何信息都不要有。因为不管怎样，就是会心酸。也可能是因为我的恋爱并没有那么甜蜜，让我不觉得他们有什么。那些人跟我说

“分开了，还是可以聊天啊，也不会心酸。”

，我只能说，我觉得是你恨了，才能够那样。当我不怪罪我的前女友（虽然头头会有），心里对他不恨，看到，听到她和男朋友那么好，自己又不怎么甜蜜。可能这就是他们说的

“如果你要报复我，就活得比我更甜蜜吧”

真的分开了，还能做朋友吗？还真地在我的脑海里打转，希望以后的我可以找到一个答案。

又回到了忙碌的生活（又学pizza)

2011-08-04T22:14:00.000-07:00

开学已经有了3个礼拜，就已经感觉到很累了。最近忙着准备讲课，好才在最后的关头有赶到。虽然没有讲到很流利，但是总觉得已经给到最多了。或许真的很久都没有讲课了。但是也好，能够让我再次上到舞台。但是以后最好就是一个月前就要准备，不然真的会来不及。

台上一分钟，台下十年功

最近在佛堂又有羽毛球比赛要主持，的确会很累，但是总觉得满充实的。有时候还觉得忙得有意义真的满爽的。最近又要教青少年怎么做pizza。也请教了一位很尊敬的前辈。她的乐意帮忙，让我做得更开心。好比今天，我觉得今天应该不会在家里很久，应该不到2个钟吧。但是加油，因为今天要学会不同的pizza做法。然后教给我们热血的青少年们。加油！！

黑暗中的蜡烛

2011-07-10T20:38:00.000-07:00

我的人生，算是像照片那样，失去方向。
以前，总觉得自己其实还不错，最后，看到的是自己的软弱。
以前，总觉得自己的想法都是没问题的，最后发觉到的是想法的幼稚，天真。
以前，总觉得世界是公平的，最后发现都是靠关系。能力吗？除非厉害到不行。

但是，还是觉得还是有希望的。
只是不知道几时会发扬光大

美里大水灾

2011-06-28T20:02:00.000-07:00

连续几天都没有下雨了，这次可下的大了。记得昨晚大概10点开始，就一直连下，虽然下雨很好睡，但是就是不知道为什么昨晚很难睡。我记得滚床到12点多了，才睡着。那个雨还是那样的大。到了8点起来了，下去看，家外一团糟。听说那个雨下到半夜两点。还我跟妈妈洗倒头大。还真的想要讲妈妈为何当初要买这么大的屋子，我们又不要请kakak，每次有东西就是累得要死。听说美里是世界上第九个会被淹没的城市。我看，如果荷兰开始淹了，也是时候准备离开美里了咯。哈哈哈

好朋友啊 -难找啊

2011-06-23T06:33:00.000-07:00

很多人说朋友多很好，其实我觉得朋友多也没什么。多人去你的facebook留言又怎么样，也只是路过罢了。有人天天看你的blog，日子也是那样。等到事情来了，有谁会来帮你？有问题的时候也会有谁来关心。家人是一定有，但是也会有好朋友帮忙的。

还真的开心身边也有两个好朋友。不管有什么，会来关心，会来问候。呵呵，可能以前觉得没有这样的朋友和家人的关爱才会想要有个女朋友吧。再看看能不能认识多点好朋友。日子就会更丰富点。加油。

礼拜天的新玩意儿

2011-06-19T05:52:00.000-07:00

最近，东西要起价得太夸张了。今年头我买的牛油只是3块多。今天去看，一个最便宜的牛油就已经4块半了。这个未免太夸张了吧？工钱没有起，费用起到那么夸张，真的是马来西亚万岁。买回来的牛油就是来做我妈妈买的小型鸡蛋糕机。

看起来还真的很可爱。但是里头介绍的做法好象还真的不是很好吃。感觉很甜，然后也不怎么好吃。我看真的要去找个比较好的做法和配料。哈哈哈，这个东西也很快就做好。全程只需要大概15分钟。但是我的侄儿和侄女还真的只是看好看还是不好看。就拿起来一直吃。全部都被他们吃完了。下次几时看看研发一个比较好一点的味道让我自己也喜欢吃。

新年要来了，不知道要怎样。

2010-02-03T06:28:00.000-08:00

又要领薪水了。

我想，很多人都不会像我这样吧。

拿到薪水不知道要做么。

当然是买东西啦，不然？

是啦。但是，不知道要买个新电话吗。

因为，真正属于我的东西真的很少。

我几乎都没有买东西给过我自己。

但是我又想，新年了，看到家里的经济有不佳。

妈妈，哥哥又不让我处一点小钱。

至少我可以做蛋糕和点心啊。

但是，这又是不少钱。

林梦的朋友又要下来。到时候有可能要花钱。

哈哈哈，但是真的希望有个人好让我买一束花给她。

但是她就还没来到我的世界。呵呵呵，只好等了。

真的不知道我的钱因该花在哪。

烦恼阿~~~

死里逃生

2010-01-24T21:10:00.000-08:00

昨天，我载着我林梦的朋友的妹妹回去军营。
当时的天气好象下过雨的，隐隐暗暗的。
我就在外头草场停了车，然后送了她进去。
当时，我真的不知道那里是烂泥地。因为表面有很多草在上头。
就是这样，连退后都不能。好才有里头的老师看到，叫了几个人来帮我推车。
真的很感激

但是就是等了太久，又怕家人会不爽因为我在外头太久。
就只好赶着回家。
我真的不是飚车一族

就驾着驾着，就开始下了毛毛雨。
我当时就想，下毛毛雨，因该不成问题。
我想，我的时速有60-70吧。
路上都没有问题，等到最后一个弯的时候。
状况就发生了。
我在弯的时候，我真的没有听到轮胎有声音。
相信有人试过转得太快的时会有‘yiii'的声音。那时表示要失去控制了
我真的没有听到，但是我是感觉到有一点不对劲。
所以我就踩break，想要放慢一点。
突然，我的后车就开始逆时的转。
从我的路，转向右边，吃去草丛。
转了180度。

当时，我心跳都快停了。我在想，我会不会就这样死掉。
我都还没有做到什么成就，难道就这样走了？

感谢上天保佑，
当时没有车经过，也感谢有烂泥帮我停下来。
我的手和脚都没力，神经也慢了。
可能我的言语不能说到很恐怖。
但是我真的感觉到差一点死掉的感觉。
真的很不好。

记得，欲速则不达。

再赶，都要慢慢来。

感恩上天慈悲

好想告别单身。。。

2010-01-12T17:57:00.000-08:00

可能真的因为老板娘不在，会突然非常的松懈。
开始放慢了脚步。。。开始会有时间放空。。。
突然有感慨，已经单身了两年。
虽然很自由，但是我还是喜欢，能有人好让我关心。
有人会和我出去聊天。
牵着她的手，走着她和我想要的生活。

但是，回想起有人说我“你两年都没有追成功过啊？”
心情就非常不好。你没说错，没有在怪你。[如果你有在看]

真的，不知道想过了多少次。我真的那么差吗？
我知道我长得不怎么样，但是至少我会负责任。
也是，我很不会大男人主义。
这也是因为我觉得，我的生活是我和我老婆的世界，不只是我的。
我要的是，我和我喜欢的人，走在一起，不是我拖着她走。
我也会努力学她喜欢的事，在她最需要人的时候在旁边。
在读书和工作上努力，让她过得更好。

但是为什么就是找不到女友。我不知道。。。真的不知道。。
有谁想要单身？想要孤独？我的心都准备好给下一个人，让她快乐，幸福。
但是就是我喜欢的女生，就是不怎么喜欢我。

因为我太好笑？那也是我想办法看到你笑啊。
你不知道，当我见到你笑，会有多开心。
做到多傻都值得。

希望这次，月老公公可以帮帮我这次。
自己要幸福很难，难道我想给幸福也这么难吗？呜呼。。。

充实之日，乐在其中。

2010-01-08T03:21:00.000-08:00

即日，吾奉敬田长者乘去复纸。

曰：“令乃地不利，乘车不易，徒则通”

当下无思而越后街。木花摇摆，形形色色，感之。

感慨人无为思育乐，困与速世即苦之。

其欲速则不达。

可爱的人，有趣的一天。

2010-01-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

好久不见。哈哈哈，又看到我更新了。稀奇吧？

哈哈，我今天也被差一点别诈死。。。

今天，她非常的emo。虽然不知道为什么。

她就想要去海边。

就好啊。。我也好久没去了。。。

在下午就一而再，再而三的确定我会不会载她去。

看来她还真想去的呢

傍晚，去到了后。她踏在草场上就愣住。

不会忘了带什么吧

她就望了海边说。。。。。

“我来这里做莫？要做莫？”

。

。。

。。。

。。。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

诈到！！！！

哈哈哈，但是最好笑的还是她说她想吃火锅。

我就说，那么看几时我下厨吧。

告诉你，从来没有看过有人变脸这么快... LOL！！！

立刻，温温柔柔的说 "我几时有这个荣欣呢？”

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

哈哈哈，太好笑了。别诈到。。。不知道如何形容。。。

但是今天还真的愉快。只是太阳不怎么合作一下。

夕阳没让我们看到。piff~~~

1st day back to work in 2010

2010-01-03T17:38:00.000-08:00

hahaha, ya i know. I didn't update for a long time.
I get it. LOL

Somehow, the first day of my work, seems so BUSY.
(lol well, you get my point when you see i highlight that)
I came to the office around 8, and the funny part is.
My laptop went missing, i don't know who took it.
So i couldn't do any office work as in sorting files.
And the new year had come, so it's not so busy life anymore.
it's 9.41 am now. And i haven't done anything.
piff~~ don't know why i don't feel good about this >.<

hahaha, too BUSY until i had to update my blog. XD
btw, happy new year to all, with you guys have a good 2010.

p/s: the office don't have any chinese language system (at least for this common pc)

睡梦中被炸醒。。没有骗你

2009-11-28T17:38:00.000-08:00

今天早上，真的是被炸醒。

不是开玩笑的炸，而是真的被炸。

大概在九点时，我还在赖床，因为可能太累，想再睡多点。

哇赛。。。。真的，突然“bomb”一声把握从床上炸下地板。

不是跟你开玩笑，那个比大地雷公还大三倍。

整条街的警铃都响了，太夸张了。

原来是后邻放汽油在他的火从里。

真的。。。我还没看过有这样的呢。

难道他不知道会这样吗？

冷~~~~

找到工了~~~开心~

2009-11-28T04:20:00.000-08:00

今天去Prudential 保险公司去见工，说真的，没么信心。
因为自己没有其他的经验，今天也算我的处男interview啦。
哈哈哈，说真的，也太慢出来混了。
但是可能也不能怪我和我妈拉，因为以前真的怕我很容易学坏吧。

还真开心了~有工作做，有东西学。哈哈哈，不知道能学到什么，
但是希望会有收获咯。好好的学~~~以后才有成就~~
加油~~~

恐怖又累又爽的一天

2009-11-26T04:59:00.000-08:00

大家好！！！我回来了！！哈哈哈，今天还真的是不可领域的一天。
今天早上，一大清早就和大学的朋友去打羽球。
可能真的事没做好热身运动，脚的胫有点拉到的感觉。
今天也不知道做么，打球一直打不中。哈哈哈，老了吗？

但是，回来的时候，总觉得不对劲。
站在们的旁边，没有听到吃饭的声音。（怪了~）
进去就看到妈妈很不舒服，还掉眼泪。。。
哇。。。当时真的不知道怎么办。就关心关心她。
下午本来有去朋友家玩电脑。也只有取消了。。
还好看了医生，没什么大不了。。太好了。。。

到了下午，一个还没见过面的朋友，约了我去和她朋友打羽球。
哈哈哈，本来有要打篮球的，都没有去了。
（sorry la~ 哈哈哈，难得有机会~人家也很可爱嘛~你们就别怪我了 =P)
我下到东林去接她再送她回家换衣服，当时还真的让我吓倒后面的车。
哈哈哈，我记得到了一分叉路时，我问她那边？
她说“中间”。哇。。。还真的要我去树丛哦？
后面的车都不知道我要转哪里。LOL

到了她家后，哇塞~~还真多狗呢。。。大概有20只吧。
虽然我不怕狗，但是有这么多只还真的不敢靠近。
我就在楼下等，等到她家里人回来，我就慢慢的退后。
说真的，不知道为什么她爸爸这么急。
快快的转进去。（车下还有一只小狗）
呃~~~~ 剩下的，自己去想象吧。（真的会睡不着）
当时，差一点就吐出来了。。。真的太血腥了。。=。=

别说那个~和她去的时候，聊了不少话~
说真的，她还真得很可爱~~
就像~~~ 可爱版的诗婷吧~
真的很爱笑，哈哈哈。
还真的可以看出为何有很多人追。
哈哈哈，今天可让我有眼福了~~

太太太太久没回来了~~

2009-11-25T03:46:00.001-08:00

最近真的太闷了。哈哈哈，我知道家里有很多东西做，但是就是没太多的乐趣。
也奇怪，大学的朋友都有叫我出去打羽毛球，中学的朋友也有叫我打篮球。
但是就是很奇怪，总觉得好像缺了么的。
哈哈哈，可能就是想我每天讲的，“缺乏爱吧~”

我也好久没有和我的钢琴玩了，哈哈哈，它应该很寂寞吧。对不起啦。。。
如果没有工作的话，我要你陪我练到烂~哈哈哈，好好的和我练"all of me" 吧。
（更可怜的是我的二胡，几乎都没动了~可怜可怜~~~）

最近不知道要做么，就想要找工做。
我就叫朋友帮忙问问，最后来了一个做保险的。
（原来他们也有part time job哦？吓倒我）
不知道几时要去interview。哈哈哈
说真的我的打工经验也不多。

真的只希望我的生活不会再走下坡了。
老天爷啊，我要求不多，就请你帮我找个温柔女友吧。
^^ 也偷偷帮我告诉她~我会让她幸福的。

Probably my blog would be my listener

2009-10-01T05:00:00.000-07:00

For 10 months on searching, i still don't find a person that i could actually open my heart to talk with. More like, i need someone personal to talk. Someone special. But probably everyone is the same, searching someone that they could actually give their heart to.

I really like those people who could actually sit down, just by chatting with me. Well, cause when i didn't do much stuff, or even i do, i will chat with him/her until there's no topic left. [Unless i got important stuff] But i really don't want to bother people doing their stuff. I mean, it's okay for me, i like chatting up and down. Go out lim teh and gossip. So i won't mind. But there's people that actually find chatting while doing stuff disturbing. Kinda scared to being scold just because of that, or being irrespective.

Guess all i could do is to type into blogs. And probably not much people will read it anyway. LOL

hahaha inactive again~

2009-08-23T18:10:00.000-07:00

Gosh, i am really not into blogging. hahaha..... being inactive with a short period. But also didn't seems to have any much stuff to write in my blog. My life seems to be the same all the time.

Last few weeks i remember i saw caren on hwang shang he. She was with her bf. Gosh, hahaha seems everyone is having their spouse. Really envy them somehow. Maybe because i don't have a special person that i can really talk with anything? i mean, when i am stressed out very much, i will have someone to know and cheer me up? and also when i am happy, i could share with a special someone? I know i can share it with friends, but face it. Sometimes friends will really need some of their own space. Cause they got their bf/gf and studies. They might not be there for you when you actually need it much. Plus, if i phone too much to a guy, they will say i am gay. If i phone too much to a girl, that girl get scared and may think i am chasing her. LOL

Also, recently i had chat with the girls around me on one issue. One issue that may be a fact that result a factor which is hard to chase girl. That is Vegetarian. Hahaha, it seems that many girls cannot accept vegetarian. Some i even got a reply which is VEGE Phobia LOL. Not so serious la, but just hate veges. It seems that vegetarian is very hard to accept, which is me. Other people thinks that vegetarian food is not so tasty and hard to shallow because it's just vege. Other than that, Vegetarian don't drink, and don't eat garlic and onion. Well, i think people went nuts after hearing that. After all those chatting, seems that everyone come out a solution. "CHASE A VEGETARIAN GIRL" lol. hahahaha like that's easy to find. Dang~

Oh well, seems gonna be staying single for a long long long long long long long long time

~* A busy and Hazy Life *~

2009-08-11T03:18:00.000-07:00

1 month of University life is almost gone, and we only have 2 month more to go. Sometimes it really feels like time flies just like light speed. After awhile, we went to another Engineering 1st year, awhile later, we are on half of semester 2.

The weather in Miri isn't good these days, it's hazy because a lot of the forest in Miri were burning badly. I do doubt that it is still burning in this moment. Funny thing is, it's really rare to see the movement of the government to aid this kind of situation. I don't see police car patrol the area and so do bomba team. It's funny that to see how can they take their salary without feeling bad.

And i do saw one part of the newspaper today saying that, Kuching are appling "raining seed" system to sarawak, and aiding on miri's weather. But from how i see, the stuff is so expensive, even USA cannot afford to put it often. If my memories serve me right, the expense of make rain with raining seed is so expensive that they rather use air jets to get water from rivers and pour it in the forest. The reason behind that USA used the "raining seeds" are because raining is soft, and it's a large area, it is good for farming, instead of putting out fires. I don't know why the people wants to make rain with 400 thousands for making nothing.
p/s: however, i don't even think they are really using the real method. Cause it's WAY TO EXPENSIVE. And use it in Economic crisis? you got to be kidding.

My life went from a relaxing days into a busy life. Well, because all this sudden, i became the President of LifeStyle Club and Marketing of Geology Club. It's like every single week i got something to do with clubs. Plus, Engineering study are always busy too, sometimes i do scared that will i overcome these or not, and do everything well enough. Well, wish me luck~

Well, Things had changed a lot in this sem. I went into a class that not much people i knew. I can't find someone to talk in the class. Thinking back then, i had jenny the cute angel, vivian the dreaming queen, Siaw Tien the mysterious girl, Seng wei the funny cool guy......... Gosh, hahaha, really missed the old days. Now i rarely see them in the uni. Well, if it's compare the sem 1, yup, it's really rare. But maybe god want me to know more people too? Hahaha, but i really wish everyone i know can be in the same group together. Sob Sob~~~

~* 1st week on university *~

2009-07-28T02:54:00.001-07:00

Well, EFY semester 2 starts in this week. And it welcomes all of us, EFY sem 1 students back to Hell. Personally, i think this time, we don't have much fun we can enjoy this sem. By seeing how the seniors suffer? I don't think sem 2 is going to be pleasant.

Moreover, i being pushed down to other class. I don't know much about the people in there, so i might having hard times in the future. Piff~ sometimes when i think of that. Really wish things can be different. But maybe this is god's will, to let me work with a lot of different people. And know what's in their mind, and know how lucky i am and continue the hardwork and follow god's footsteps.

Today, i went to a class called EFDP, Enginering Foundation Design Process. God, that Mr.Tan really are nuts. He said did we asked our seniors about the unit, and if they think it's fun or not. Obviously i had talked to some seniors, and they think EFDP is a unit that kills. Well, Everyone give the same reaction [no]. But then, Mr.Tan said, he should talk to our seniors, cause he think EFDP is fun.

At 1st, i was like... hmm.... ok. Maybe it's really fun, just a bit busy. But then, he said, we will have reports writting, starting this week. And we have at least 2 reports per week to write. Then i was like, "bloody hell? 2 reports to write per week and you said it's enjoyable and fun?". I got no idea what's that Mr.Tan is thinking. I think my study life in sem 2 is going to be ruined by that EFDP 100.

Poor kite

2009-07-24T07:30:00.000-07:00

Well, i wish i got a good camera, to take the picture down when i go to the beach with those 2 lovely couple. Ezra went to buy a big kite, worth of RM 14 from super saves. Well, because he haven't play kite for 10 years. Then we went to tanjung to fly the kite. It was strange though, the wind was quite big but Ezra couldn't fly it up. I thought maybe there's a problem with the wind, then Ezra insist me to try fly it up. So i give it another few tries and seems it didn't work too. But i look at my side, i saw a ang mo flying his kite nicely, although it spin a lot. So i don't think it's the wind problem. So i went to check with the kite. YO RI KA~ it's the kite structure. it's not fully balanced each other, so it will twist to the right side when we tries to pull it up.

Well, after i fixed it, the kite flew up high, real high and with fast paste too. The wind were great, the kite can flew up quite smoothly. Seriously i wanted to flew to the highest place, then i get it down for Ezra to fly it with his spouse. Well, cause i know how it will feel when you let your girlfriend fly it and you stand at the back teaching her how to fly. The feeling is just sweet. But then, after it flew up very high, it's fully stable. I slowly slows down the rising speed until the line wheel stopped. Then i thought line is finished. Well, it did, but it doesn't tied on the wheel, so it flew up high and fly towards kampung area....... slowly slowly went........ Gosh~~~ kinda spoiled Ezra's plan..... don't felt good..... Sob sob.....

I really wish that kite can come back. But next time, i have to make sure it is fully tied at the wheel, or i might spoil the things again. T__________T

~Not same class with old pals~

2009-07-22T04:46:00.000-07:00

Yup~ that's how i feeling now. Felt blue~ and quite left out~ cause i changed to group D (i guess). Jenny told me i am in Group X (why got so much group, i don't understand). But ya, gonna miss all those fun we had before in our class. Gosh, i don't think i really know anyone in group D. Think gonna better start solo again on the beginning, and see if there's someone i could rely on in the new group. Guess i really need to make new friends again. ^^ But i guess everyone are the same, we just don't like changing. The house, friends and environment. We might wanna try new stuff, but doesn't mean you want to keep it. ^^ Gah...... really gets blue when i know i am the only one who gone into the new group~ =S piff piff~~~

~best gift on 2009~

2009-07-20T17:41:00.000-07:00

well, this is the late gift from one of my friends. It is the best gift i ever get on 2009. Well, the name of the doll called Bubu Bear. The original bubu bears look like the picture showed below. It's grey browned, and have a.... what do we call that? a tie? but anyway.... that's the doll.But the doll that i get looks a bit different because it can turn into something special. Something we can used for daily life. That's the coolest part of the gift, it can change into another object. i really like the doll~ Love it~

What object can it change into? well, guess it, if you get it right. i will chia you for a meal. =P

Cheese bake ingredience reminder

2009-07-20T04:34:00.000-07:00

500g cream cheese
80g castor sugar
375ml thickening/whipping cream
3 egg yolks

3 egg whites
80g castor sugar (extra)
15g corn starch
60g plain flour

Just put here to refresh my memories XD

Man~ it's just too hot

2009-07-17T00:14:00.000-07:00

Holy XXXX, damn this hot weather. Well, that would be the stuff i might say, cause it's REAL HOT. I don't know if it's just me or it's the weather, but things are just gone way hotter. I can't even stand the weather even by opening the fan which is facing me. Sometimes i even strip of my shirts and lay on the ground. Gosh, the weather is just killing me seriously.....

I guess global warming is really getting seriously now, i can't imagine how fast will the ice melted at the north pole. Well, speaking of which i also notice something, from last year. Thanks to my ex (i guess), it's been a long time since i go beaches. I think it should be around 1 year half that i never touches beaches again after she broke up with me. So last year, we had a BBQ on Tanjung and i noticed that the sea level wasn't so close to the shore before. Well, if i memories serve me right, there's a bridge made from stones, and on the beginning of the bridge, there's whole bunch of rocks, shape like a circle or oval. Back then, when my ex and me were on the beaches, i remember the sea level never reaches there, unless it's night, when the sea level rises. Now, it crossed over the oval shaped rocks. I think it just getting way and way seriously now.

Funny though, i can see the country on europe, australia are trying their best to save the world, while USA is finding solutions, but still on polluting the earth. Same goes to China. But the worst of all, i think it's Malaysia, i don't see a sign of the goverment moves on saving the planet. Probably too much rahsua? Who knows?

But the weather is really killing me, not only i can't sweat (i think it's too hot so i can't), the laundry can be dried for few hours. Not to mention it requires almost whole morning and afternoon to fully dried them. Seriously, i hope people can come up with something soon, cause i think people are going to be killed more by the hot weather than people killed by the nuclear weapons if this condition goes on. =.=

Gosh..... this weather is killing me........

Lol this holidays are just too long~

2009-07-15T18:14:00.000-07:00

Well, the holidays are really just too long. LOL, and it seems like everyone are having their own days and enjoying themselves. But i think most of my friends would be enjoying the holidays. My holidays are like......... no money spending..... well, you get the picture. NO MONEY. lol, even go out lim teh i also sit there just for talking. Well, doesn't mean that i really need some drinks, cause the most important is to have some small gathering. Well, speaking of which, i kinda got used to the life without spending a penny in a day. That's back to the old days in high school. But this year, jenny keep chia me drinks and i kinda felt a bit shy. Because it's not once, but almost like everytime we went out. >.< hahaha, guess i need to treat her real well in the future ^^.

But ya, my holidays are quite boring, cause i don't have quite much money to spend. Most importantly, my fuel tank is nearly empty. Sometimes i don't even dare to drive it, i scare it will just break down after a small journey. Well, if they didn't asked me out for badminton or going out, i would be bored to death. So, should thank them for let me having a better holidays =P. I just hope the uni can start as soon as possible.

~True colour of friends~

2009-07-14T03:31:00.000-07:00

Again, the picture doesn't connected to what i am going to write later, it's just a doll that i find it cute and adorable. ^^ it's called Bubu bears, even the name are cute. =P ya, i have 1 bubu in my house, it's a doll, but actually you can unfold it into a blanket. not really that nice on looking, but it serve nice blanket.

Well, it's been awhile before i update of my blog. I felt quite relief that there's much people come visit my blog time to time, i thank them for being a part in my life. ^^ for caring me. But ya, time had passed, it's obvious that we know more on the people around us. It's as we know their true face behind the mask. Yup, i think everyone had the same feeling or met some people are like, these. When you know him/her, they seems nice and friendly, but in the end, they are quite cruel and can even hurt a person without feeling sorry. Well, there's some people that who looked very fierce and cool but when you get to know them, they are quite friendly and nice person to be with too. Finally understand what our teachers told us in primary school, "never judge a book with its cover".

well, one of my friend was being emo, having relationship problems. In the same time, she had failed one of her subject. Well, i wish she can overcome that, and hope she can find a way to settle it. (don't ask me who). When i heard how she has been through, maybe she's more unlucky than i am, but i seems to feel the same pain, well when i broke up in my form 6, with my ex. But mine is 2 weeks before the finals, making me no mood for doing the exams, which further getting bad results. And ya, it's pain in the ass, when you got relationship and result problems at the same times, not to mention you got tons of pressure from your parents once you did bad on your exams. But i will be there helping her if she required any of them.

But seriously, i never know how will the friends around me will change, well, as in i finally uncover their real colours. Some are quite dissapointing, and the most i hate are those still act normal even they know they did wrong, and always find reasons for covering their mistake. I just don't understand how's that bad to admit on what you did wrong? piff~ But hey, i know something, pei min's friends are the best. =P well, some of the friends from other school are good too. It's just on ratio, pei min rocks =P

P/S : Jenny ling scare people taking her pictures. LOL

~* Guess life's like that *~

2009-07-05T20:43:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, just posting this image because i think it looked so cool~ the person behind this should be really good on drawing.

it's been few days before i wrote anything again on my blog. I think mostly are because i don't feel like writing something. But thanks to Qi jia (my buddy) came back from KL, we been out quite often (almost like everyday) and hang out. Yup, hanging out a lot do wipe off the loneliness, which bothers me a lot. But still, i can't deny a thing, yes, i do still like Ruby. (but i think i don't really like jia jing already LOL) but anyway, i guess life is like that, when it's time to let go, it's time! or you may suffer again and again. Piff~ i wish i could change everything, but not saying that i didn't do anything wrong to her, but you know, angers sometimes just mislead a person. I guess the problems gets bigger and bigger, and because she don't want to fix anything, i guess there's no turning back. But she did asked me to bake a cake for her birthday, and she wanted to delay it to celebrate together. Guess what? her birthday is early June~ and now it's already July. I guess i will just bake one cake and deliver to her office and ask her friends to give it to her. Well, a promise is a promise~

Although i do really hate the things she have done, but i can't help it. I love her. Might as just forgive her and let her do anything she likes, including hurting me. Until i get another girlfriend (if someone really wants me LOL), i might just being alone and continue missed the old days with her. (yup, i always do, and i hate myself for doing so. That's why sometimes i do say "i hate myself")

~* Hopeless, Giving Up*~

2009-07-01T17:43:00.000-07:00

Past few months, i still had some hope in my ex girlfriend. Wishing we can be together and start all over again. But yesterday, i just felt like, i want to discuss a bit about these things, so i phone her over. Yet, she told me straight she don't want to discuss anything about the past, nor the future. I think it should be anything that related to relationship. But the funny thing is, i think she's the one who wished to start all over. I thought i was the key, if i accept everything, we can be together. But in the end, it seems like, I were the one who caused everything to be like this (well, according to HER theory). She did nothing wrong and i was to be blamed. But she had forgiven me, forgetting the past, and accept the reasons that i were doing it (reasons? ok......). Fine, i take it. For the future, i can take it. Then i said, if i could have a second chance to replace everything, she said no~ (you forgive me, but not giving me another chance..... ok....) Then i said, do you wish that we could be together? (i make it straight so i can know it will waste my time or not). She said yes, but not now, but in the future. how long? 6 years later. She said, if we were meant to be together, we shall.

Ok, i accept it, but i ask her, by ignoring me for 2 weeks in a row, (meaning she can don't communicate with me for once in a 2 weeks) and do she think we will end up together? She said yes, if our FATE is there, we will be together. For her, SHE NO NEED DO ANYTHING AND WE WILL BE TOGETHER. it's like you no need to turn on the boiler, you will get hot water IF YOU HAD THE FATE. LOL, how can i even accept it? Once sze yee told me, about what her father said to his brother and i really really agreed a lot. her dad said "Even the god throw a bunch of gold or money to you, you won't get the money if you don't bend yourself and pick them up". Hell right, of course the fate is there, and you need to put some afford to get it. Can you even believe it? For her, after 6 years, if we had the fate. POOF!! we are couple again. Just like that, within a minute.

I didn't blame her on anything. I told her that, it's very bitter and why you won't understand when you missed someone and the person didn't want to talk to you (even because he/she is very busy). She said, if the reason are acceptable, it's ok. Yet, she still believe it, for 1 year. Then, i remember i was doing EFPC, i was busy on typing. She phone over, and i said, i'm busy. Find you again next time. At night, i reply the same thing again. Then i go prepare for quiz next day, then again, she phoned. I said, sorry, really not in the mood to chat, i am preparing for quiz. talk to you next time. Then, 3 days passed, i phoned her. I said, what you were finding me for? (like what she always said). She said, just to talk, and she felt very miserable for the past 3 days, without talking to me.

Wow, i thought she finally woke up. So i said, 3 days? then can you imagine how much pain i were in for 2 weeks without talking (including massage)? more over, once you left me a month! without any massage. How would i feel? Then she seems to understand (ya, she seems). Then we had some chit chats. I was so happy that time, it seems she finally woke up, i see HOPE. But guess what? well, you get the picture. After that, back to the original, she still ignore me time to time, until today.

Today, i woke up, i felt so miserable. I think this relationship is hopeless. Totally hopeless now. I think below hui ching, she's the girl that i cannot stand. I know she might not see what i type here, and i don't think she will ever know, cause i am so not going to hang up the phone again.

"Sorry Ruby, i just want to tell you, the Ruby i missed were gone. If this is the way you treat the one you love. Sorry girl, i don't even want to be your husband. I gave you 2nd and 3rd chances, and you don't even want to give me a 2nd chance. Sorry baby, you are not god, without you, i can still live, smile and have fun. Be your way, just like hui ching. One day you will know that what you lost and even you felt lonely, sorry not this time, I WON'T BE THERE FOR YOU."

Damn~ i feel so good right now. LOL

~* perfect day with a perfect weather *~

2009-06-30T18:25:00.000-07:00

hahaha, it's a great day. Today i woke up around 7.30, and i thought i over slept. But true, if it's back to the old school days, i woke up around 6.00. But it feels really funny when i walk down from the stairs, and saw my mom still eating breakfast. Then i was like "huh? i thought mom always eat early?", but in my mind i think it's around 9.00. And i saw the clock, it's only 7.30. It's funny, i felt i slept enough, and i should be a late morning. Then, my mom wanted me to go out pay the bills, and help her to put money in the bank. I went out and opened my window as i always do. Well, i don't like air cone smell (they do have a unique smell, if you had bad system) and it saves fuel too (proven by MythBuster 2009 on Discovery Channel). And when i drove off, the wind is cool, not too cold, not too hot. It feels like a nature air cone, as if you are in Australia when it's autumn season. It feels so good, and probably because there's rain yesterday night (i think so), so the air is very refreshing. Gosh~ the weather is just perfect, if i had a good quality camera and bike, i might be off to take pictures around the miri and do some workouts at the same time too.

Damn~ I really need to find a day to go hiking. >.< The weather is getting better and better. But these days my brother didn't give me pocket money and my mom wanted me to stay at home. I really turn to be a pok kai zai.... no money on anything, on my phone, my tank fuel and my wallet. LOL want go see movie also don't know can see what leh~ cause no $$.

~* A crazy day *~

2009-06-29T07:06:00.000-07:00

Thanks god it's raining now....... it was so hot in the evening... LOL speaking of which, i am having ache on my back, tummy and legs. Yup~ some workouts are always good, but i still don't think that's enough~ hahaha, i still want more. Might be planning to go mountain climb again if there's a good weather.

Today, i supposedly want to help my mom to register one application from TM net. It gives free local calls, meaning no cost if you phone house phone. (damn~ i wish i had a gf by now, so i can phone her every second. hahaha, i really missed old days). And if you phone handphones, it cost 30 cents per minutes. I heard it was 70 cents before, so it turn cheaper. And it even give a wireless phone. LOL how good is that? the only deal is adding RM 10 more to your streamxy line. LOL you are so going to see me phoning people around the area. but anyway, i was late from badminton match, so my mom left the house to do it on her own.

They funny thing was, i don't have keys to get in. I was hungry, thirsty and it was around 2.20+ pm. My neighbour came out and asked if i needed to phone my mom. i refuse and try to wait. I layed on the ground with my dogs and trying to rest. I waited until 3.30 pm, and she's not back yet. So, i decided to walk around the house, see if there's any place i can dig into my house (sounds like a theif). So i walk around the house, i saw that my mom didn't close the windows that i opened up this morning. (how careless of my mom, but thanks) So i get a Working Stair (i really don't know what it is called) but i put it on many places, and try to see if i can go up to the roof or not. Finally, i found a good spot, where there's handle that i could hold to get onto the roof. It's actually a skeleton of a old roof that my dad built around 10 years ago. I was scare it might break, but hopefully it can hold up to 80 kg load, haha. Finally i got in, ate something, have a bath and rest. My mom came back on 5 pm. If i were really waiting for her, i think i will be dead meat lying on the ground, LOL. It's just a crazy day~

~* Pei min Gathering *~

2009-06-27T00:53:00.000-07:00

yesterday, we pei min students that still in miri had a small gathering on double star around 2.30 pm. It's really fun to gather around, having a chit chat about the times we have been through these years. It's funny that i see most of them are still the same, well including me, the clown~. But the funny part is, don't know why, people seems to treat me as a real baker. Haha, we had a small time talking about cakes, like how to do the topping or what cake should i bake next. But seriously not too sure myself, but i might want to try on something new, something that not very fimiliar with my previous recipe.

But still, undeniable, these are the friends that can believe fully (expect some of the guys). I find them that they are different than other students from other schools. Sometimes i really feel i was blessed, because they do appreciate things and treat and behave like normal people no matter what's the background of the person is. Maybe what we learnt in pei min is different than other school.... maybe. It seems that we treasure the people around us, stick together, forgive and forget. And i also thought that everyone will be going their own way, we might not having such big gathering after we went to university. But i was wrong.... and i was happy with it. But it let me feel relief that everyone is doing fine, and we are enjoying our lives. Haha, if i really had a girlfriend next time, i will take her to our gathering as well. Because i think they are the best friends i got.

p/s: i find love quite funny~ when you want it, it won't give it to you. Unless you try very hard.... but sometimes you fail too, even you do. But when you stop chasing love, it will come knock the door, like giving you chances. I don't know why, i just had that kind of thoughts~

~~ Badminton Match ~~

2009-06-24T00:02:00.000-07:00

it's a good weather for playing badminton with my curtin friends. It should be the 5th or 6th times that we had this kind of gathering. Well, probably not like those dinner gathering, but i kinda enjoy when people exercise together. Sometimes it recalled the time when i was in middle school. There's one row of cars that only from our class, parking outside the basketball field or volleyball field. It makes me happy, don't know why. Probably knowing that we had the chance to spend time together?

My racket had turn into pieces~ (i mean the lines, lol) i can't even smash the ball (is it a ball? lol or feather ball~) with it. It will get stucked in my lines. So today i just borrow the rackets from those people that didn't play. It's one enjoying day, but i wish there's a guy or girl around my level to let me sweat even more. But speaking of which, jenny seems to improve quite a lot. And whenever jenny wins the match, she always smile and laugh. Somehow, her reaction is unique and quite cute sometimes. Vivian is the girl that always laugh from the beginning to the end. LOL

But i do wonder, why there's no people in my class that plays basketball? hahaha, or either volleyball? LOL. or i am just the only alien around. guess not ^^

p/s: I don't know why my friends put one ticket only, but they didn't get the saman~ because of the rain? but if my memories serve me right, there's not saman for the previous match. Did the warden didn't walk around those place? or we are just lucky? lol

Appreciation

2009-06-22T04:48:00.000-07:00

It's a good morning on 22nd June 2009. I had a good sleep and when i woke up, i sat there and started to think..... I was thinking..... what would i be when i was really alone? like i always said i was. But kind to think of it, i wasn't. if i really was, how can i be the person i am now? Families and friends were there when i need some help. Although sometimes they can't give me some helps on the time in need, yet they had helped a lot, even my ex girlfriend. After thinking again and again, i don't know why the hell i was complaining so much for the past few years. I was so blessed and i didn't notice it and appreciate it.

Hence, i wanted to thank those people that really helped me during my hard times. Although i think most of them will not see it, but i thank you all with my heart. I want to thank.....

Father - for teaching me how to be a "human" and talk like one
Mother - for giving birth to me and make sure i was not spoiled
Eldest sister - always point out the things i did wrong
Second elder sister - for sewing my clothes and teaches me how to bake cakes
Third sister - for teaching me how to play piano and letting me know how important a family is
Youngest sister - for giving me pocket money so i can buy some foods during middle school time
Elder brother - for being truthful to me and as a replacement as a dad after my dad passed away
Ex Gf - for letting me know "face" and "people's view" are not important, is how you look yourseld does.

Xu Qi you - for being my basketball mate and showing me how lucky i was
Desmond Yii - for being my side for so long and always willing to help (although some of them went totally wrong)
Koh Qi Jia - for teaching me how to be optimistic and find a happier life and drive me out to have fun
Basil Chua - for letting me know how to enjoy my life
Shu Ling / Yi xiu - for cheering me up when i was down
Sze Yee - for being a really really nice friend and linster
Caren - for letting me know how should i treat a friend
Ting - for playing with me insanely in middle school
Yee Ping - Teaching me impossible can be possible if you really put your heart into it

Kian Lik - for letting me know i am a defensive person and take me out to have some fun
Ezra Lee - for letting me know, a person need confident and don't do anything that are worthless
Hye - for being a helpful person and being my listener
Vivian - for letting me know, how to cherrish those you love
Hui - for letting me know, succes come from 1% of knowledge, 99% of hardworking
Jenny - for being truthful to me and really showed me how holy person is
Fan - for letting me know how a good child to behave
Jayme - for cheering me up

there's too much people i should thank, but listing every single them are going to be very long. But seriously i am here to appreciate the things you had done. I really thank you all for helping me during these times, without you guys, I am nothing. Really really thank you all.....

~~ Monster Hunter 2 ~~

2009-06-21T00:06:00.000-07:00

this is a game that i played recently. It is a very tough game, and it were introduced by Desmond Yii. This game are very challenging and realistic. If i were giving rating of this game, i would give it 4.5 out of 5.

Storyline: Monster Hunter 2 is a first person game. It all began when humans and monsters existed in the same world. Monster hunt each other for food, so are humans too. Humans tend to fight back with all their might. to strengthen themselves, they took the bones, scales, skins and head of the monster, and make them into their armors and weapons. People started to have peaceful life with hunters protecting the cities. Until one day, a black dragon flew over the world, and tear every single country. The world went into chaos, people starting to flee and fight for survival. People almost went into extinction, when one legendary hunter (YOU) came to aid the city.

Comment: The game is very tough and challenging because everything are close to realistic. Just imagine that you are a human, and you are fighting dragons, huge crabs or huge wild boar. Not like other games, the character do have special power that can eliminate a monster within few minutes with super powers. Hence, you only know different type of attack sequence and mix them yourself into a combo attacks. And a monster with 10 times your size can have huge amount of hp (life) and high attacking damage. It means that you need to hit a lot to bring them down, and they only need to deliver few hits to KO you. So playing this game really need to be careful and have to avoid being hit at all cost. Overall, it's just a good game.

This is the best equipment I currently had, it's made from crab's shell. (the picture that shown previously). It looks like a Rugby player, it's funny but it actually serve a good armor.

Currently i am hunting the female dragon, to make the equipment above. it looks nicer and looked more cool.

Current Boss: Legendary Wind Dragon
Description: The LWD came to the city and try to destroy the city. The hunters try to defend the city and pushed him back to the forest. And I was sent by the Leader of the village to fight him back to the icy mountain. Yet, he is just too strong, i can't manage to kill him yet.

~~ Holidays' Plan ~~

2009-06-19T22:09:00.000-07:00

During this long holidays month, i actually planned to get a job and earn some pocket money. I actually had enough for my spending a month, but probably most of the money got leeched by the gathering of the curtin friends. To be honest, they are just too rich. The place they go are consider those rich people place (for me, it is). Hence, once i tag along, my wallet starting to burn. Maybe next time i should see whether it is needed to go or not.

My mom didn't wanted me to work, i guess probably because she's quite old and she needed accompany. Some people might say i can company her at night. But by knowing my dad had passed away for nearly 7 years, it's just too bad to left her alone at home. Just to imagine that how she would be in the house. Nobody to talk to, had nothing much to do, maybe just house chores, even me myself can't take this kind of life, whole morning and afternoon spending her time alone. Some may say, you don't talk to mom every single second, but when you notice there's people around that were doing something, it's a big difference. Just like when my mom wasn't around, i feel quite lonely too. I too felt a bit happy cause i get to do anything i want when i am alone at home, but when the time passed, i starting to felt the loneliness. No one was watching the TV, walking around or even doing laundry. Everything is just total silence, you can only hear your breathing.

These days, i were spending my time on playing Monster Hunter 2. it's a nice game, and it takes long time to play. For me, it also teaches me some lessons. I will talk about that on the next post~

The Panda is BACK!

2009-06-19T17:44:00.000-07:00

For now and onwards, i think i am going to use English to write the blog. Because Mandarin takes a bit of time to write, also some of my friends can't read Mandarin. But it really feels good to be back to blogging, that's for sure.

I had lost most of the tracks of my past. Probably cause i didn't write them down. when i looked back, most of the time were precious, sweet, sour and bitter. but then are good memories.

After i broke with my ex, it seems that i am very desperate to have a girlfriend. I thought i totally got out of the hole that i were trapped in. I mean, i was done with my ex. But when i think it again, it seems that i wasn't actually got out of the area, because i was still sad, i still felt lonely, so i needed someone to cover the missing part of my soul. I kept on finding but i just can't find the girl i needed for my future. However, even i found some good girls, i think i will be rejected (with high chances).

The funny part was, when the time pass, and here's degree Sem 1, 2009. I was totally fine with single. That's when I know i am fully recovered from the pain. Although sometimes i still do feel loneliness, but it seems that everything is just fine. Sze yee even make her first wish on wanting me to have a girlfriend before august. But don't know, i am not willing to find any girls now, so going to dissapoint her anyway.

~~Raining weeks~~

2008-09-09T23:12:00.000-07:00

These days, the world is strange. Maybe it's because of the global warming, i guess. The weather seems to be like having a big change. These weeks, the sky keep on pouring the rain towards the miri area. We can't even have a day WITHOUT rain. Seriously, not joking. I didn't count how much is the raining days, but i know that it had been continously raining for a at least 1 week more. The rain seems to ruined our beach party. Because it's like everytime we wanted to go to beach, it will rain before we wanted to go, or rain after we reach it. kinda don't like it though.

Well, it's kinda funny when i sudden had a though of..... "Maybe too many people suffered too much in these weeks, people cried and cried. And somehow the Sky also cried with us." Hahaha, supposely i am one of them i guess. The reports are too much. It almost made me to sleep like around 1.00 - 2.00 am. Gosh, kinda really freaks me out. I kinda turn tired and lazy these days..... maybe it's already in resting period, where i don't have much to do. But there is 2 exams on friday. Going to rest well these days. Hahaha.

Oh well..... by looking at the calender.... kinda feel sad and bad.... cause i only got 2 month left to go. Hahaha.... going to value these moments.....

~~发觉篇~~

2008-09-03T04:03:00.000-07:00

最近感觉真的发生了很多很多事情。要说也说不完。。哈哈。。。那么只说些可以说的吧。

在这６个月来。。。真的来了个大变化。

感情区

这一年，真的不知怎么搞的。很多人喜欢来喜欢去，但是就是不会对的上。A喜欢B，但是B喜欢C。说真的，还没真的看到一个新情侣。哈哈。。。可能真是 global warming 造成的，因为寒、暖流改了，季节也变了，恋爱季节也变成失恋季节。所以我说月老啊。。。请你行行好。。。

行为区

不知为什么，每个人在sem２里都有一些变化。小的不提。大的吗。。。。还真大。提到这里嘛。。。值得一提的就是Josua Kong。他还真的有了一大转变。他从一个很自大、大胆、变态的人，变的比较会听人意见、谦虚、谨慎和少一点变态的人。说真的，背后的原因还真的不懂。还有一个就是hui ching。我还真的没看过她那么温柔过、热情过。哈哈。。。不错的开始。。。至少她有所领悟。那么我也不能输！哈哈。。。要做个接近完美的男人。。。（虽然还很远。。。哈哈）

哈哈累了。。。。还是留给下次再写吧。。。因为这几天又是因为功课没睡好。bleh～～～

外篇～女人（妈妈，老婆）之苦

2008-09-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

可以給你老公看 , 以後你也可以跟你兒子這麼說 .. ..... 　（寫的真好）

曾在廣播裡聽到 , 當孩子頂嘴甚至步入叛逆期時的因應之道
做媽媽的總是嘮叨 , 有一次已經高中的兒子不耐煩的頂撞了母親 , 母親氣得半死。
做父親的便約兒子一起出門散步。兩人走了好久 , 父親一路上不發一語 , 兒子納悶。
一直到要進家門口時 , 父親拍拍兒子的肩膀 , 以男人對男人的語氣說 :
『等一下進去時 , 給我女人一點面子 ! 』
兒子驚訝於老爸用哥兒們的語氣對他說話 , 並因男人跟男人之間的義氣 , 從此對母親
畢恭畢敬的。
所以 , 有的時候 , 父親這個角色還是頗重要的 !
當我的小孩頂撞我時，我想告訴他，下列的事任選一樣，做到後，才有頂撞的權利：
1. 連續 3 個月每吃完一餐就須催吐 ( 孕吐 )
2. 乳頭被別人吸到破皮達一個月 ( 餵奶 )
3. 肚子塞一顆籃球達 10 個月 ( 懷孕 )
4. 接受皮鞭抽打達 48 小時 ( 生小孩 )
5. 10 個月不能喝冰水、咖啡、茶
6.. 5 個月睡覺不能翻身
7. 10 個月不能出遊遠行，不能跑跳
8. 10 個月不能生病，要不，生病不能吃藥
9. 至育嬰室把屎把尿一個月
10. 晚上睡覺每二個小時起床一次，清醒 30 分鐘達一個月
寫完上述 10 項，我覺得當娘的真不是人幹的。
想起一個高中同學他說：有一次頂撞母親，父親把他從椅子上踹下來，斥責他 :
你媽是我捧在手心的寶，我呵護她，照顧她，對她輕聲細語，你憑什麼對他大小聲 !!!
我的同學再也不敢頂撞母親了。

><~ 好感動，尤其是最後一句是經典。
男人們丫，如果你們真的愛、疼你老婆（女朋友）記得這句話就夠了！
老婆是拿來疼的，所以千錯萬錯都是自己的錯，不服氣嗎？誰叫你當初追人家。
當媽的如果聽到老公這麼說，應該會很高興吧！男人要學著點 ...

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看到这里，心情有很多感触。常常都想，＂做个女人有多好啊。。。＂或者＂为什么世界这样不公平。＂但是看了之后，觉得原来自己不知道身在福中不知福。男人只是受比较多的皮肉苦而已嘛。。哈哈哈。。。有时很伤心自己常和妈吵架。。。她辛苦了。。。。。

（＞＂）＞心情很差 ~ 面具篇

2008-08-27T18:23:00.000-07:00

28/08

这几天。。心情太糟了。。。哈哈。。。但别人眼中我只是更Active 一些。太多事情发生了。。。但是又没有人有空，也能让我安心哭诉的人。。好痛。。。我也不知道为什么今年忍耐力很差。。或许是因为那个＂原因＂吧。。让我很失落。。觉得自己很差劲。

已经３个月了。。。压抑自己的感情。感觉越来越不好。。。连睡觉都有问题。我每次都让自己不要超越那条线，好让她不会不舒服。我常常看到她有时好像有心事，很想关心，但又不敢，即使我敢她也都不会想告诉我。我真的好想哭。。。因为我感觉我在她心中并不怎么重要。或许我真的很恐怖吧。。让她不怎么喜欢我，我有爱玩，东跳西跳的，可能给她感觉我不认真吧？也可能我身上并没有她想要的条件吧？我多希望她能告诉我，好让我能改吧。。。但是又不可能。因为我开不了口，而且我们的话题只有功课，一些电玩。没了。有时有别的话题也是因为有她的姐妹在。于是我只好骗自己，把面具带上，好让她开心，觉得安全。

但是，不管我多想要不理睬她，不想她，不和她聊天，都不能维持很久。每次她对我笑，我的面具就破碎。。。再烦恼也笑了起来。我在她面前根本什么防御能力都没有，但她骂我时，我直接受重伤，但她称赞我时，可以高兴的想什么一样。但我的心看起来怎样也打动不了她。我也是第一次感觉到站的这样进，但是感觉好远。
（别问她是谁，我不会也不想说）

［王力宏：花田错－改编］
－我铁定犯了错，
－原本～想要全忘掉。
－我还是犯了错，
－想她～知道我多好。
－为什么又犯错，
－犯错就像一朵朵希望花枯掉。
－我自己会改过，
－请～给我机会让你微笑。

～＊～忙碌的一个小路程～＊～

2008-08-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

25/08

今天是很白目的一天。我突然发觉到原来我和我的curtin的某些朋友很有距离感。或许真的是因为是男女有别，难相处。但是我却能和别的女生打成一片。难道我真的这么糟吗？还是我真的想太多了呢？把自己看的太重？要求太多？

是我关心太多吗？我太八了？但是若我没有用意和他们说话，那么她们可能真的会什么都不和我说。当然，除了功课。算了啦。。。。累了。。。最好什么都别管。做个聋了，哑吧，盲人吧。虽然我觉得我迟早会疯掉，因为没说话。但是至少会让我现在会比较好过。

22/08

今晚，我们为siew hui 庆祝她的18岁生日。这blueberry cheesecake 是我，嘉晶和诗怡做的。上面有着厚厚的blueberry，里头有淡淡的orange口味。我们大约用了一个小时半做好。这蛋糕可是价值 RM 45 起跳。哈哈哈。。。浓浓的cheese。。。好香。。。。上面还有LOVE 形状的蜡烛。（抱歉啦，siew hui。它是我的宝，不舍得给你 =P）

（＞＂）＞它真的真的很好吃哦。最好笑是ah hye zai 明明很饱了，但当我问她还要不要吃时，她可是猛点头，好像没吃饭一样。太好笑了。

（＞＂）＞不过呢。。。当天有人穿的很漂亮。可爱又带点成熟。希望能有很好的机会和相机把她拍下。＾＾可惜啊。。。。。可惜。。。。

18/08

最近睡眠不好再加上很多assignments，很透不过气。很希望能有人好说话。但是，又很难能找到对的人说话。而我最想说话的对象则不怎么理睬我。

让我在今年用了很多这词语，＂咳。。。。＂

2008-08-17T03:12:00.000-07:00

这几天真忙呢。。。。 report 忙上忙下，但是今天总算是要完了。忙完了这个，接下来就是在21／10 生日朋友的生日蛋糕。口味是blue berry cheese cake。这是第一次正式做，希望能成功。

刚忙完，就看到＞＞瘌子帮公主＜＜拿着名牌钱包。。。。正是年纪轻轻就把名牌踩在脚下。。。天啊。。。。。这还有天理吗？？ LOL！！！

很想知道她最近心情怎样。。。想问，但是有不敢，不能。但是不知为什么，是她最进变漂亮了吗？？哈哈。。。

～＊～熊猫布落搁生活的开始～＊～

2008-08-12T23:01:00.000-07:00

13th August

When the day shines upon the land..... in a city called miri... lies a funny, slim tall guy called himself a Panda.

Previous blog is left alone for people that is close to me to see. People who might want to see it. please request for your permissions. Thank you.

These weeks it had been a hard day..... sadness filled my life..... I had a physic quiz today. But thankfully, maybe i am blessed by god, i can manage to deal with it without studying much. Don't know why, i don't have much moods to study these days.... maybe because deal to that "reason" hahaha......

I had been sitting on my piano and pc for weeks..... was trying to distract my attention to another things instead.... but it seems that it is not working well...... oh well.... just wish time can wash things out.

This blog is for bi-language. I use english while i am in University of Curtin. And i will try to use mandarin in this blog when i am in my house. ^^

Everyone is welcomed to give positive or negative comments~

~*~爱演又碍眼的熊猫生活~*~