~*~爱演又碍眼的熊猫生活~*~
Friday, March 1, 2013
New start for a new life
March 2013, another page of story folded in my life.
I have to admit, going to brunei isn't an easy task. It should be even
said to be an action that require a lot of guts. I am not sure if I will
regret it or not in the future, but it seems like I don't have the choice now.
Working in my new company, everyone seems nice to me. I am quite happy
that i could actually start working as a engineer instead of draftman.
Well, all the works dedicated in Miri always start from draftman first. No
offense to it, because draftman can revise a lot of engineering stuff. But
always helping draw the engineering drawings doesn't seems really called
DESIGNING. At least, i am sitting down on a desk to design for projects.
Small, but it should be a good start.
It's kinda funny when you think about it, after 4 years of suffer in Engineering
school, when we need to design for a housing, we use programs. We use Orion and
Prokon to design the building. Back then, i think it is require 1 month to design
a house. Now, i think only takes about 1 week? or even less. But what more stunning is,
why I study so hard when we only need to use program to design? Haha, that's
one myth i need to understand in my life now.
When i actually drove my way up to Brunei, I was crying like a baby. I couldn't
understand why, maybe this is the day that I am going to step out of the house in
Miri. A lot of the friends tells me, "No worries man, you going to come back every
weekends, nothing will change." But I don't think they understand my point of view.
Before yesterday, I was the only one who can take good care of my mom, although
I didn't give my full to her, but I was there to cook and help her when she's sick
or even feel like not doing so. Somehow, deep inside of me feels that is a blessing,
to able to take care my mom. Ya, sometimes my mom nag a lot, making me pissed a lot.
But I think when I stepped on the gas to go brunei, suddenly I felt, "no doubt, I
still care about her a lot. I still love her, no matter how she treat me, she's my
mom." I also understand, this will create an impact to her.
I couldn't sleep well for 2 nights, imagine what might happen to my mom if something
goes wrong. Somehow I wish i could be there for her, but I already made the decision
to go Brunei work. And part of the decision was made due to anger, when I think
"If you just want to yell at me every day, then i better just get out of this house."
Oh dad, if you were around, I think our home will be not be as harsh as now. If only
you were here. Maybe I won't even go brunei work, just some normal salary work, is enough
for me to be happy for the rest of my life.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Friday, August 12, 2011
前情人能做朋友吗?
如果人家知道我跟我的前女友的故事,可能总觉得很无缘无故的分开,但是也觉得没有什么好可惜的。因为她的异性缘很好,有时候跟其他的朋友好到很亲密,所以人家就觉得他不专一。有时候真的也让我觉得很气,但是到最后还是接受了她的习惯。分开过后,一直都有想要回去跟她在一起,但是就是一直不理睬我,也不接受我。当时候也有1年多了。等到麻木了,就找东西让自己忙,来忘记她。直到她回来找我,但是我已经有女朋友了。 所以,她知道了,也伤心一阵子,又过了一段时间,就跟另外的一个人在一起了。让我知道过后,心里总觉得酸酸的。但是也没管太多,认为时间就能够冲淡一切。
她很坚持要跟我做朋友,说她不想失去我这种朋友。过了几个月,前女友找我了,把我当着她的好朋友来谈她和她的男朋友的事情。可能我也是蛮了解她的,所以才来找我。聊了,又发现到他们很甜蜜。哇。。。还真地感觉到有点像一把刀插了进来。可能这个就是他们所说的,分开了,最好任何信息都不要有。因为不管怎样,就是会心酸。也可能是因为我的恋爱并没有那么甜蜜,让我不觉得他们有什么。那些人跟我说
真的分开了,还能做朋友吗?还真地在我的脑海里打转,希望以后的我可以找到一个答案。
她很坚持要跟我做朋友,说她不想失去我这种朋友。过了几个月,前女友找我了,把我当着她的好朋友来谈她和她的男朋友的事情。可能我也是蛮了解她的,所以才来找我。聊了,又发现到他们很甜蜜。哇。。。还真地感觉到有点像一把刀插了进来。可能这个就是他们所说的,分开了,最好任何信息都不要有。因为不管怎样,就是会心酸。也可能是因为我的恋爱并没有那么甜蜜,让我不觉得他们有什么。那些人跟我说
“分开了,还是可以聊天啊,也不会心酸。”,我只能说,我觉得是你恨了,才能够那样。当我不怪罪我的前女友(虽然头头会有),心里对他不恨,看到,听到她和男朋友那么好,自己又不怎么甜蜜。可能这就是他们说的
“如果你要报复我,就活得比我更甜蜜吧”
真的分开了,还能做朋友吗?还真地在我的脑海里打转,希望以后的我可以找到一个答案。
Thursday, August 4, 2011
又回到了忙碌的生活(又学pizza)
开学已经有了3个礼拜,就已经感觉到很累了。最近忙着准备讲课,好才在最后的关头有赶到。虽然没有讲到很流利,但是总觉得已经给到最多了。或许真的很久都没有讲课了。但是也好,能够让我再次上到舞台。但是以后最好就是一个月前就要准备,不然真的会来不及。
最近在佛堂又有羽毛球比赛要主持,的确会很累,但是总觉得满充实的。有时候还觉得忙得有意义真的满爽的。最近又要教青少年怎么做pizza。也请教了一位很尊敬的前辈。她的乐意帮忙,让我做得更开心。好比今天,我觉得今天应该不会在家里很久,应该不到2个钟吧。但是加油,因为今天要学会不同的pizza做法。然后教给我们热血的青少年们。加油!!
台上一分钟,台下十年功
最近在佛堂又有羽毛球比赛要主持,的确会很累,但是总觉得满充实的。有时候还觉得忙得有意义真的满爽的。最近又要教青少年怎么做pizza。也请教了一位很尊敬的前辈。她的乐意帮忙,让我做得更开心。好比今天,我觉得今天应该不会在家里很久,应该不到2个钟吧。但是加油,因为今天要学会不同的pizza做法。然后教给我们热血的青少年们。加油!!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
黑暗中的蜡烛
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
美里大水灾
Thursday, June 23, 2011
好朋友啊 -难找啊
很多人说朋友多很好,其实我觉得朋友多也没什么。多人去你的facebook留言又怎么样,也只是路过罢了。有人天天看你的blog,日子也是那样。等到事情来了,有谁会来帮你?有问题的时候也会有谁来关心。家人是一定有,但是也会有好朋友帮忙的。
还真的开心身边也有两个好朋友。不管有什么,会来关心,会来问候。呵呵,可能以前觉得没有这样的朋友和家人的关爱才会想要有个女朋友吧。再看看能不能认识多点好朋友。日子就会更丰富点。加油。
还真的开心身边也有两个好朋友。不管有什么,会来关心,会来问候。呵呵,可能以前觉得没有这样的朋友和家人的关爱才会想要有个女朋友吧。再看看能不能认识多点好朋友。日子就会更丰富点。加油。
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