~* 1st week on university *~

Well, EFY semester 2 starts in this week. And it welcomes all of us, EFY sem 1 students back to Hell. Personally, i think this time, we don't have much fun we can enjoy this sem. By seeing how the seniors suffer? I don't think sem 2 is going to be pleasant.

Moreover, i being pushed down to other class. I don't know much about the people in there, so i might having hard times in the future. Piff~ sometimes when i think of that. Really wish things can be different. But maybe this is god's will, to let me work with a lot of different people. And know what's in their mind, and know how lucky i am and continue the hardwork and follow god's footsteps.

Today, i went to a class called EFDP, Enginering Foundation Design Process. God, that Mr.Tan really are nuts. He said did we asked our seniors about the unit, and if they think it's fun or not. Obviously i had talked to some seniors, and they think EFDP is a unit that kills. Well, Everyone give the same reaction [no]. But then, Mr.Tan said, he should talk to our seniors, cause he think EFDP is fun.

At 1st, i was like... hmm.... ok. Maybe it's really fun, just a bit busy. But then, he said, we will have reports writting, starting this week. And we have at least 2 reports per week to write. Then i was like, "bloody hell? 2 reports to write per week and you said it's enjoyable and fun?". I got no idea what's that Mr.Tan is thinking. I think my study life in sem 2 is going to be ruined by that EFDP 100.

Poor kite

Well, i wish i got a good camera, to take the picture down when i go to the beach with those 2 lovely couple. Ezra went to buy a big kite, worth of RM 14 from super saves. Well, because he haven't play kite for 10 years. Then we went to tanjung to fly the kite. It was strange though, the wind was quite big but Ezra couldn't fly it up. I thought maybe there's a problem with the wind, then Ezra insist me to try fly it up. So i give it another few tries and seems it didn't work too. But i look at my side, i saw a ang mo flying his kite nicely, although it spin a lot. So i don't think it's the wind problem. So i went to check with the kite. YO RI KA~ it's the kite structure. it's not fully balanced each other, so it will twist to the right side when we tries to pull it up.

Well, after i fixed it, the kite flew up high, real high and with fast paste too. The wind were great, the kite can flew up quite smoothly. Seriously i wanted to flew to the highest place, then i get it down for Ezra to fly it with his spouse. Well, cause i know how it will feel when you let your girlfriend fly it and you stand at the back teaching her how to fly. The feeling is just sweet. But then, after it flew up very high, it's fully stable. I slowly slows down the rising speed until the line wheel stopped. Then i thought line is finished. Well, it did, but it doesn't tied on the wheel, so it flew up high and fly towards kampung area....... slowly slowly went........ Gosh~~~ kinda spoiled Ezra's plan..... don't felt good..... Sob sob.....

I really wish that kite can come back. But next time, i have to make sure it is fully tied at the wheel, or i might spoil the things again. T__________T

~*Not same class with old pals*~

Yup~ that's how i feeling now. Felt blue~ and quite left out~ cause i changed to group D (i guess). Jenny told me i am in Group X (why got so much group, i don't understand). But ya, gonna miss all those fun we had before in our class. Gosh, i don't think i really know anyone in group D. Think gonna better start solo again on the beginning, and see if there's someone i could rely on in the new group. Guess i really need to make new friends again. ^^ But i guess everyone are the same, we just don't like changing. The house, friends and environment. We might wanna try new stuff, but doesn't mean you want to keep it. ^^ Gah...... really gets blue when i know i am the only one who gone into the new group~ =S piff piff~~~

~*best gift on 2009*~

well, this is the late gift from one of my friends. It is the best gift i ever get on 2009. Well, the name of the doll called Bubu Bear. The original bubu bears look like the picture showed below. It's grey browned, and have a.... what do we call that? a tie? but anyway.... that's the doll.But the doll that i get looks a bit different because it can turn into something special. Something we can used for daily life. That's the coolest part of the gift, it can change into another object. i really like the doll~ Love it~

What object can it change into? well, guess it, if you get it right. i will chia you for a meal. =P

Cheese bake ingredience reminder

500g cream cheese
80g castor sugar
375ml thickening/whipping cream
3 egg yolks


3 egg whites
80g castor sugar (extra)
15g corn starch
60g plain flour


Just put here to refresh my memories XD

Man~ it's just too hot

Holy XXXX, damn this hot weather. Well, that would be the stuff i might say, cause it's REAL HOT. I don't know if it's just me or it's the weather, but things are just gone way hotter. I can't even stand the weather even by opening the fan which is facing me. Sometimes i even strip of my shirts and lay on the ground. Gosh, the weather is just killing me seriously.....

I guess global warming is really getting seriously now, i can't imagine how fast will the ice melted at the north pole. Well, speaking of which i also notice something, from last year. Thanks to my ex (i guess), it's been a long time since i go beaches. I think it should be around 1 year half that i never touches beaches again after she broke up with me. So last year, we had a BBQ on Tanjung and i noticed that the sea level wasn't so close to the shore before. Well, if i memories serve me right, there's a bridge made from stones, and on the beginning of the bridge, there's whole bunch of rocks, shape like a circle or oval. Back then, when my ex and me were on the beaches, i remember the sea level never reaches there, unless it's night, when the sea level rises. Now, it crossed over the oval shaped rocks. I think it just getting way and way seriously now.

Funny though, i can see the country on europe, australia are trying their best to save the world, while USA is finding solutions, but still on polluting the earth. Same goes to China. But the worst of all, i think it's Malaysia, i don't see a sign of the goverment moves on saving the planet. Probably too much rahsua? Who knows?

But the weather is really killing me, not only i can't sweat (i think it's too hot so i can't), the laundry can be dried for few hours. Not to mention it requires almost whole morning and afternoon to fully dried them. Seriously, i hope people can come up with something soon, cause i think people are going to be killed more by the hot weather than people killed by the nuclear weapons if this condition goes on. =.=

Gosh..... this weather is killing me........

Lol this holidays are just too long~

Well, the holidays are really just too long. LOL, and it seems like everyone are having their own days and enjoying themselves. But i think most of my friends would be enjoying the holidays. My holidays are like......... no money spending..... well, you get the picture. NO MONEY. lol, even go out lim teh i also sit there just for talking. Well, doesn't mean that i really need some drinks, cause the most important is to have some small gathering. Well, speaking of which, i kinda got used to the life without spending a penny in a day. That's back to the old days in high school. But this year, jenny keep chia me drinks and i kinda felt a bit shy. Because it's not once, but almost like everytime we went out. >.< hahaha, guess i need to treat her real well in the future ^^.

But ya, my holidays are quite boring, cause i don't have quite much money to spend. Most importantly, my fuel tank is nearly empty. Sometimes i don't even dare to drive it, i scare it will just break down after a small journey. Well, if they didn't asked me out for badminton or going out, i would be bored to death. So, should thank them for let me having a better holidays =P. I just hope the uni can start as soon as possible.

~*True colour of friends*~

Again, the picture doesn't connected to what i am going to write later, it's just a doll that i find it cute and adorable. ^^ it's called Bubu bears, even the name are cute. =P ya, i have 1 bubu in my house, it's a doll, but actually you can unfold it into a blanket. not really that nice on looking, but it serve nice blanket.

Well, it's been awhile before i update of my blog. I felt quite relief that there's much people come visit my blog time to time, i thank them for being a part in my life. ^^ for caring me. But ya, time had passed, it's obvious that we know more on the people around us. It's as we know their true face behind the mask. Yup, i think everyone had the same feeling or met some people are like, these. When you know him/her, they seems nice and friendly, but in the end, they are quite cruel and can even hurt a person without feeling sorry. Well, there's some people that who looked very fierce and cool but when you get to know them, they are quite friendly and nice person to be with too. Finally understand what our teachers told us in primary school, "never judge a book with its cover".

well, one of my friend was being emo, having relationship problems. In the same time, she had failed one of her subject. Well, i wish she can overcome that, and hope she can find a way to settle it. (don't ask me who). When i heard how she has been through, maybe she's more unlucky than i am, but i seems to feel the same pain, well when i broke up in my form 6, with my ex. But mine is 2 weeks before the finals, making me no mood for doing the exams, which further getting bad results. And ya, it's pain in the ass, when you got relationship and result problems at the same times, not to mention you got tons of pressure from your parents once you did bad on your exams. But i will be there helping her if she required any of them.

But seriously, i never know how will the friends around me will change, well, as in i finally uncover their real colours. Some are quite dissapointing, and the most i hate are those still act normal even they know they did wrong, and always find reasons for covering their mistake. I just don't understand how's that bad to admit on what you did wrong? piff~ But hey, i know something, pei min's friends are the best. =P well, some of the friends from other school are good too. It's just on ratio, pei min rocks =P

P/S : Jenny ling scare people taking her pictures. LOL

~* Guess life's like that *~

Hahaha, just posting this image because i think it looked so cool~ the person behind this should be really good on drawing.

it's been few days before i wrote anything again on my blog. I think mostly are because i don't feel like writing something. But thanks to Qi jia (my buddy) came back from KL, we been out quite often (almost like everyday) and hang out. Yup, hanging out a lot do wipe off the loneliness, which bothers me a lot. But still, i can't deny a thing, yes, i do still like Ruby. (but i think i don't really like jia jing already LOL) but anyway, i guess life is like that, when it's time to let go, it's time! or you may suffer again and again. Piff~ i wish i could change everything, but not saying that i didn't do anything wrong to her, but you know, angers sometimes just mislead a person. I guess the problems gets bigger and bigger, and because she don't want to fix anything, i guess there's no turning back. But she did asked me to bake a cake for her birthday, and she wanted to delay it to celebrate together. Guess what? her birthday is early June~ and now it's already July. I guess i will just bake one cake and deliver to her office and ask her friends to give it to her. Well, a promise is a promise~

Although i do really hate the things she have done, but i can't help it. I love her. Might as just forgive her and let her do anything she likes, including hurting me. Until i get another girlfriend (if someone really wants me LOL), i might just being alone and continue missed the old days with her. (yup, i always do, and i hate myself for doing so. That's why sometimes i do say "i hate myself")

~* Hopeless, Giving Up*~

Past few months, i still had some hope in my ex girlfriend. Wishing we can be together and start all over again. But yesterday, i just felt like, i want to discuss a bit about these things, so i phone her over. Yet, she told me straight she don't want to discuss anything about the past, nor the future. I think it should be anything that related to relationship. But the funny thing is, i think she's the one who wished to start all over. I thought i was the key, if i accept everything, we can be together. But in the end, it seems like, I were the one who caused everything to be like this (well, according to HER theory). She did nothing wrong and i was to be blamed. But she had forgiven me, forgetting the past, and accept the reasons that i were doing it (reasons? ok......). Fine, i take it. For the future, i can take it. Then i said, if i could have a second chance to replace everything, she said no~ (you forgive me, but not giving me another chance..... ok....) Then i said, do you wish that we could be together? (i make it straight so i can know it will waste my time or not). She said yes, but not now, but in the future. how long? 6 years later. She said, if we were meant to be together, we shall.

Ok, i accept it, but i ask her, by ignoring me for 2 weeks in a row, (meaning she can don't communicate with me for once in a 2 weeks) and do she think we will end up together? She said yes, if our FATE is there, we will be together. For her, SHE NO NEED DO ANYTHING AND WE WILL BE TOGETHER. it's like you no need to turn on the boiler, you will get hot water IF YOU HAD THE FATE. LOL, how can i even accept it? Once sze yee told me, about what her father said to his brother and i really really agreed a lot. her dad said "Even the god throw a bunch of gold or money to you, you won't get the money if you don't bend yourself and pick them up". Hell right, of course the fate is there, and you need to put some afford to get it. Can you even believe it? For her, after 6 years, if we had the fate. POOF!! we are couple again. Just like that, within a minute.

I didn't blame her on anything. I told her that, it's very bitter and why you won't understand when you missed someone and the person didn't want to talk to you (even because he/she is very busy). She said, if the reason are acceptable, it's ok. Yet, she still believe it, for 1 year. Then, i remember i was doing EFPC, i was busy on typing. She phone over, and i said, i'm busy. Find you again next time. At night, i reply the same thing again. Then i go prepare for quiz next day, then again, she phoned. I said, sorry, really not in the mood to chat, i am preparing for quiz. talk to you next time. Then, 3 days passed, i phoned her. I said, what you were finding me for? (like what she always said). She said, just to talk, and she felt very miserable for the past 3 days, without talking to me.

Wow, i thought she finally woke up. So i said, 3 days? then can you imagine how much pain i were in for 2 weeks without talking (including massage)? more over, once you left me a month! without any massage. How would i feel? Then she seems to understand (ya, she seems). Then we had some chit chats. I was so happy that time, it seems she finally woke up, i see HOPE. But guess what? well, you get the picture. After that, back to the original, she still ignore me time to time, until today.

Today, i woke up, i felt so miserable. I think this relationship is hopeless. Totally hopeless now. I think below hui ching, she's the girl that i cannot stand. I know she might not see what i type here, and i don't think she will ever know, cause i am so not going to hang up the phone again.

"Sorry Ruby, i just want to tell you, the Ruby i missed were gone. If this is the way you treat the one you love. Sorry girl, i don't even want to be your husband. I gave you 2nd and 3rd chances, and you don't even want to give me a 2nd chance. Sorry baby, you are not god, without you, i can still live, smile and have fun. Be your way, just like hui ching. One day you will know that what you lost and even you felt lonely, sorry not this time, I WON'T BE THERE FOR YOU."

Damn~ i feel so good right now. LOL