~* perfect day with a perfect weather *~

hahaha, it's a great day. Today i woke up around 7.30, and i thought i over slept. But true, if it's back to the old school days, i woke up around 6.00. But it feels really funny when i walk down from the stairs, and saw my mom still eating breakfast. Then i was like "huh? i thought mom always eat early?", but in my mind i think it's around 9.00. And i saw the clock, it's only 7.30. It's funny, i felt i slept enough, and i should be a late morning. Then, my mom wanted me to go out pay the bills, and help her to put money in the bank. I went out and opened my window as i always do. Well, i don't like air cone smell (they do have a unique smell, if you had bad system) and it saves fuel too (proven by MythBuster 2009 on Discovery Channel). And when i drove off, the wind is cool, not too cold, not too hot. It feels like a nature air cone, as if you are in Australia when it's autumn season. It feels so good, and probably because there's rain yesterday night (i think so), so the air is very refreshing. Gosh~ the weather is just perfect, if i had a good quality camera and bike, i might be off to take pictures around the miri and do some workouts at the same time too.

Damn~ I really need to find a day to go hiking. >.< The weather is getting better and better. But these days my brother didn't give me pocket money and my mom wanted me to stay at home. I really turn to be a pok kai zai.... no money on anything, on my phone, my tank fuel and my wallet. LOL want go see movie also don't know can see what leh~ cause no $$.

~* A crazy day *~

Thanks god it's raining now....... it was so hot in the evening... LOL speaking of which, i am having ache on my back, tummy and legs. Yup~ some workouts are always good, but i still don't think that's enough~ hahaha, i still want more. Might be planning to go mountain climb again if there's a good weather.

Today, i supposedly want to help my mom to register one application from TM net. It gives free local calls, meaning no cost if you phone house phone. (damn~ i wish i had a gf by now, so i can phone her every second. hahaha, i really missed old days). And if you phone handphones, it cost 30 cents per minutes. I heard it was 70 cents before, so it turn cheaper. And it even give a wireless phone. LOL how good is that? the only deal is adding RM 10 more to your streamxy line. LOL you are so going to see me phoning people around the area. but anyway, i was late from badminton match, so my mom left the house to do it on her own.

They funny thing was, i don't have keys to get in. I was hungry, thirsty and it was around 2.20+ pm. My neighbour came out and asked if i needed to phone my mom. i refuse and try to wait. I layed on the ground with my dogs and trying to rest. I waited until 3.30 pm, and she's not back yet. So, i decided to walk around the house, see if there's any place i can dig into my house (sounds like a theif). So i walk around the house, i saw that my mom didn't close the windows that i opened up this morning. (how careless of my mom, but thanks) So i get a Working Stair (i really don't know what it is called) but i put it on many places, and try to see if i can go up to the roof or not. Finally, i found a good spot, where there's handle that i could hold to get onto the roof. It's actually a skeleton of a old roof that my dad built around 10 years ago. I was scare it might break, but hopefully it can hold up to 80 kg load, haha. Finally i got in, ate something, have a bath and rest. My mom came back on 5 pm. If i were really waiting for her, i think i will be dead meat lying on the ground, LOL. It's just a crazy day~

~* Pei min Gathering *~

yesterday, we pei min students that still in miri had a small gathering on double star around 2.30 pm. It's really fun to gather around, having a chit chat about the times we have been through these years. It's funny that i see most of them are still the same, well including me, the clown~. But the funny part is, don't know why, people seems to treat me as a real baker. Haha, we had a small time talking about cakes, like how to do the topping or what cake should i bake next. But seriously not too sure myself, but i might want to try on something new, something that not very fimiliar with my previous recipe.

But still, undeniable, these are the friends that can believe fully (expect some of the guys). I find them that they are different than other students from other schools. Sometimes i really feel i was blessed, because they do appreciate things and treat and behave like normal people no matter what's the background of the person is. Maybe what we learnt in pei min is different than other school.... maybe. It seems that we treasure the people around us, stick together, forgive and forget. And i also thought that everyone will be going their own way, we might not having such big gathering after we went to university. But i was wrong.... and i was happy with it. But it let me feel relief that everyone is doing fine, and we are enjoying our lives. Haha, if i really had a girlfriend next time, i will take her to our gathering as well. Because i think they are the best friends i got.

p/s: i find love quite funny~ when you want it, it won't give it to you. Unless you try very hard.... but sometimes you fail too, even you do. But when you stop chasing love, it will come knock the door, like giving you chances. I don't know why, i just had that kind of thoughts~

~*~ Badminton Match ~*~

it's a good weather for playing badminton with my curtin friends. It should be the 5th or 6th times that we had this kind of gathering. Well, probably not like those dinner gathering, but i kinda enjoy when people exercise together. Sometimes it recalled the time when i was in middle school. There's one row of cars that only from our class, parking outside the basketball field or volleyball field. It makes me happy, don't know why. Probably knowing that we had the chance to spend time together?

My racket had turn into pieces~ (i mean the lines, lol) i can't even smash the ball (is it a ball? lol or feather ball~) with it. It will get stucked in my lines. So today i just borrow the rackets from those people that didn't play. It's one enjoying day, but i wish there's a guy or girl around my level to let me sweat even more. But speaking of which, jenny seems to improve quite a lot. And whenever jenny wins the match, she always smile and laugh. Somehow, her reaction is unique and quite cute sometimes. Vivian is the girl that always laugh from the beginning to the end. LOL

But i do wonder, why there's no people in my class that plays basketball? hahaha, or either volleyball? LOL. or i am just the only alien around. guess not ^^

p/s: I don't know why my friends put one ticket only, but they didn't get the saman~ because of the rain? but if my memories serve me right, there's not saman for the previous match. Did the warden didn't walk around those place? or we are just lucky? lol

*Appreciation*

It's a good morning on 22nd June 2009. I had a good sleep and when i woke up, i sat there and started to think..... I was thinking..... what would i be when i was really alone? like i always said i was. But kind to think of it, i wasn't. if i really was, how can i be the person i am now? Families and friends were there when i need some help. Although sometimes they can't give me some helps on the time in need, yet they had helped a lot, even my ex girlfriend. After thinking again and again, i don't know why the hell i was complaining so much for the past few years. I was so blessed and i didn't notice it and appreciate it.

Hence, i wanted to thank those people that really helped me during my hard times. Although i think most of them will not see it, but i thank you all with my heart. I want to thank.....

Father - for teaching me how to be a "human" and talk like one
Mother - for giving birth to me and make sure i was not spoiled
Eldest sister - always point out the things i did wrong
Second elder sister - for sewing my clothes and teaches me how to bake cakes
Third sister - for teaching me how to play piano and letting me know how important a family is
Youngest sister - for giving me pocket money so i can buy some foods during middle school time
Elder brother - for being truthful to me and as a replacement as a dad after my dad passed away
Ex Gf - for letting me know "face" and "people's view" are not important, is how you look yourseld does.

Xu Qi you - for being my basketball mate and showing me how lucky i was
Desmond Yii - for being my side for so long and always willing to help (although some of them went totally wrong)
Koh Qi Jia - for teaching me how to be optimistic and find a happier life and drive me out to have fun
Basil Chua - for letting me know how to enjoy my life
Shu Ling / Yi xiu - for cheering me up when i was down
Sze Yee - for being a really really nice friend and linster
Caren - for letting me know how should i treat a friend
Ting - for playing with me insanely in middle school
Yee Ping - Teaching me impossible can be possible if you really put your heart into it

Kian Lik - for letting me know i am a defensive person and take me out to have some fun
Ezra Lee - for letting me know, a person need confident and don't do anything that are worthless
Hye - for being a helpful person and being my listener
Vivian - for letting me know, how to cherrish those you love
Hui - for letting me know, succes come from 1% of knowledge, 99% of hardworking
Jenny - for being truthful to me and really showed me how holy person is
Fan - for letting me know how a good child to behave
Jayme - for cheering me up

there's too much people i should thank, but listing every single them are going to be very long. But seriously i am here to appreciate the things you had done. I really thank you all for helping me during these times, without you guys, I am nothing. Really really thank you all.....

~*~ Monster Hunter 2 ~*~

this is a game that i played recently. It is a very tough game, and it were introduced by Desmond Yii. This game are very challenging and realistic. If i were giving rating of this game, i would give it 4.5 out of 5.


Storyline: Monster Hunter 2 is a first person game. It all began when humans and monsters existed in the same world. Monster hunt each other for food, so are humans too. Humans tend to fight back with all their might. to strengthen themselves, they took the bones, scales, skins and head of the monster, and make them into their armors and weapons. People started to have peaceful life with hunters protecting the cities. Until one day, a black dragon flew over the world, and tear every single country. The world went into chaos, people starting to flee and fight for survival. People almost went into extinction, when one legendary hunter (YOU) came to aid the city.


Comment: The game is very tough and challenging because everything are close to realistic. Just imagine that you are a human, and you are fighting dragons, huge crabs or huge wild boar. Not like other games, the character do have special power that can eliminate a monster within few minutes with super powers. Hence, you only know different type of attack sequence and mix them yourself into a combo attacks. And a monster with 10 times your size can have huge amount of hp (life) and high attacking damage. It means that you need to hit a lot to bring them down, and they only need to deliver few hits to KO you. So playing this game really need to be careful and have to avoid being hit at all cost. Overall, it's just a good game.


This is the best equipment I currently had, it's made from crab's shell. (the picture that shown previously). It looks like a Rugby player, it's funny but it actually serve a good armor.



Currently i am hunting the female dragon, to make the equipment above. it looks nicer and looked more cool.

Current Boss: Legendary Wind Dragon
Description: The LWD came to the city and try to destroy the city. The hunters try to defend the city and pushed him back to the forest. And I was sent by the Leader of the village to fight him back to the icy mountain. Yet, he is just too strong, i can't manage to kill him yet.

~*~ Holidays' Plan ~*~

During this long holidays month, i actually planned to get a job and earn some pocket money. I actually had enough for my spending a month, but probably most of the money got leeched by the gathering of the curtin friends. To be honest, they are just too rich. The place they go are consider those rich people place (for me, it is). Hence, once i tag along, my wallet starting to burn. Maybe next time i should see whether it is needed to go or not.

My mom didn't wanted me to work, i guess probably because she's quite old and she needed accompany. Some people might say i can company her at night. But by knowing my dad had passed away for nearly 7 years, it's just too bad to left her alone at home. Just to imagine that how she would be in the house. Nobody to talk to, had nothing much to do, maybe just house chores, even me myself can't take this kind of life, whole morning and afternoon spending her time alone. Some may say, you don't talk to mom every single second, but when you notice there's people around that were doing something, it's a big difference. Just like when my mom wasn't around, i feel quite lonely too. I too felt a bit happy cause i get to do anything i want when i am alone at home, but when the time passed, i starting to felt the loneliness. No one was watching the TV, walking around or even doing laundry. Everything is just total silence, you can only hear your breathing.

These days, i were spending my time on playing Monster Hunter 2. it's a nice game, and it takes long time to play. For me, it also teaches me some lessons. I will talk about that on the next post~

The Panda is BACK!

For now and onwards, i think i am going to use English to write the blog. Because Mandarin takes a bit of time to write, also some of my friends can't read Mandarin. But it really feels good to be back to blogging, that's for sure.

I had lost most of the tracks of my past. Probably cause i didn't write them down. when i looked back, most of the time were precious, sweet, sour and bitter. but then are good memories.

After i broke with my ex, it seems that i am very desperate to have a girlfriend. I thought i totally got out of the hole that i were trapped in. I mean, i was done with my ex. But when i think it again, it seems that i wasn't actually got out of the area, because i was still sad, i still felt lonely, so i needed someone to cover the missing part of my soul. I kept on finding but i just can't find the girl i needed for my future. However, even i found some good girls, i think i will be rejected (with high chances).

The funny part was, when the time pass, and here's degree Sem 1, 2009. I was totally fine with single. That's when I know i am fully recovered from the pain. Although sometimes i still do feel loneliness, but it seems that everything is just fine. Sze yee even make her first wish on wanting me to have a girlfriend before august. But don't know, i am not willing to find any girls now, so going to dissapoint her anyway.